No one knows

Most of what I do is to please other people. And the rest is to spend time with my kids. But what I really want to do is to never get out of bed. I'm too tired and in too much pain. Today I feel like I've been beaten with a hammer. My entire body feels battered and bruised. It's really not fair to my loved ones or friends. They didn't ask for an ill family member/friend. So I press on pleasing no one and wearing myself out. I'm trying so hard to hang on till the kids are able to support themselves. Just not sure I will make it.....then again I must.