Friday, May 8, 2015

No one knows

Most of what I do is to please other people. And the rest is to spend time with my kids. But what I really want to do is to never get out of bed. I'm too tired and in too much pain. Today I feel like I've been beaten with a hammer. My entire body feels battered and bruised. It's really not fair to my loved ones or friends. They didn't ask for an ill family member/friend. So I press on pleasing no one and wearing myself out. I'm trying so hard to hang on till the kids are able to support themselves. Just not sure I will make it.....then again I must.

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Oh fibro

how I despise thee. My legs feel like wooden stumps. I can't feel my knees at all, they are numb. My hips aches and radiate to a burning sensation in my thighs. My back is radiating to my chest and making it difficult to breathe. I'm watching a video to try and distract from the pain but it's not easy to concentrate. The above was last evening Friday May 1st. This morning is not much better and zi even took the extra meds my doctor ordered. If I can get enough energy I will go try the hot tub.